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I tell no one, but it’s been two, no — three months now — that I haven’t been sleeping straight through the night. My sleep is haunted by random thoughts and images, flashing memories that I can’t seem to control.
It’s better when I am at work, because work, mundane though it be, requires a focus that serves to rein in the random thoughts. But at night, the controls fall away and my consciousness becomes a dark, swirling current that sweeps me, helpless and drowning in the flood of memories. Sometimes I’m not even sure if the memories are real, or if they are only imagined, a trick of the light, the cunning creations of a mind that wants a different ending to the story that was.
Trick of the light or true, I just wish I could stop the thoughts, it would be such a welcome rest.
January 30th, 2013 at 6:39 pm
perhaps a glass of milk will help, before you sleep?
February 1st, 2013 at 3:34 pm
February 3rd, 2013 at 6:38 am
oh… that’s sad. lots of delightful goodies to feast on! *just kidding*
letting go… that would take a lot of effort, i guess.